Something has been bugging me recently... over the course of a few months which I tried to ignore but it finally hit me like right now. It's 3AM and I guess this when your deepest thoughts surface.
These past few days I've been ignoring all my friends, going out to study alone while everyone's studying in school together. And I feel like I want to escape from everyone, any human being. And I think it's because of how I'm starting to accept the fact that there's nothing called a true friend, everyone simply think for themselves. I'm drifting from so many friends after they found their boyfriends, I'm having friends who bug me like nobody's business when they have no one and vanish right when they find someone else cooler and I'm having friends who have motives behind every questions they ask you. I simply act like I don't know and don't care...... Guys, please.
I'm drifting from one of my closest friend ever, who I thought nothing could ever drift us until this year when I realized that I'm simply a substitute. She turns to me whenever she's alone and fades away whenever she's having a good time with her friends. She tells me all of her troubles and I listen, but to give her the credit, I express my troubles to her sometimes too. I don't know, I'm just disappointed because I thought I had a friend that would have my back anytime and that I could rely on and trust...
I guess this is reality.
I don't trust people anymore.
(Unless something or someone can prove me wrong)
I'll just work hard for my own future, be independent and pursue what I love to do.
And GIVE NO SHITS ABOUT ANYONE.
(Not in a mean or selfish way, but to fight for my own happiness and not get affected by anyone's problems anymore.)