It has been over 6 months since the A'levels ended,
and I can't believe this vacation is about to be over
I'll be heading back to school in less than a month.
This holiday has truly been the longest and best one ever.
I've had the time to accomplish so many things and to also
simply spend my time chilling at home.
I went on a holiday to my friend's hometown, I got my
first ever job, I took my very first ballet/contemporary/hip hop class,
I had the time of my life with my friends, I chilled at home and watched
many many movies and tv shows.
Some highlights of these experiences include, getting to meet new people,
being picked by the dance instructor to be one of the students who get featured on
her instagram, and watching all 10 seasons of Friends!
I've learnt so much about myself as well.
I've learnt the art of being alone and it feels AMAZING.
You don't have to give in to anyone, or be obliged to do anything.
It's all in your control. And through that, I learnt to embrace my
One thing I realized though, is how bad my social
anxiety is. I always knew that I had anxiety, but I didn't expect social
anxiety to be part of the package.
I've been to 2 orientation camps for my university so far,
and in both camps, I just found it really hard to open myself up to
a whole new group of people.
Having to introduce myself to a group of people literally
makes me tremble and when I do that, my voice gets really shaky.
Deep down, I know that the people are really nice,
but I can't really control it.
I'll be super quiet and awkward, and omg,
one on one conversations are the worst.
In those moments, I really found it quite a challenge to just be myself,
I really want to just melt into the ground and disappear.
It's crazy to me how people are able to shed their personalities so quickly
during these camps... I wish I could do that, you know?
I know I have to overcome this..
Cause no matter what, I'm still a social being.
I love my introvert self, but I don't want my social
anxiety to handicap me from interacting with others
and from potentially opening new doors in my life.
How can I make an impact on the world,
if I don't even have to courage to shed my personality
and give a part of myself to others?
Anyway, I came up with some reminders to myself..
I hope it'll help me in future.
1. Focus on the beneath. Ignore the superficial things about people such as their looks,
their popularity, their grades or their wealth...
Just remember that deep down, we are all the same - humans.
There's nothing to be afraid of.
2. People are not out there to judge you.
They probably don't even care.
3. Share some of your light, bring some kindness to the world and the people around you
by being yourself.
4. Giving compliments helps.
5. Ask more questions about people. It's great because you won't have to talk about
yourself, it's better than awkward silences and you get to learn more about others.
I have another 2 orientation camps coming up,
hope it'll be better than the previous 2.
Anyway, so what am I up to now that the vacation is about to end?
I'm watching "The Office", it's hilarious.
I'm watching SYTYCD 12, I love the new format of the show and
the talent on this season so far is amazing!!!!
I'm spending some time to research on how my university works.
I've been hanging out with some friends. (both old and my new university friends)
Yup, nothing fancy.
I'm so gonna miss this vacation ):
Gotta enjoy it to the fullest.
I'll end of by posting some of my favorite routines on SYTYCD 12 so far.
Top 20 week 1 Team Street performance.
This routine by nappytabs was so great and powerful.
All the dancers had so much charisma!!!
Top 20 week 1 Team stage performance by Hailee, Marissa and Alexia.
This routine by Brian Friedman was the bomb.
The girls were sexy and powerful.
Props to them for dancing in those killer heels.
Top 20 week 1 Team stage performance by Jim and Darion choreographed by
Benoit Swan Pouffer. This routine was tough!!!! I felt like dying just watching it.
Mad respect for them for pulling it off so wonderfully.
Top 20 week 2 Team Stage performance by Travis Wall.
Loved this piece so much, the transitions and how well the choreography
matched the song. They were strong and I could definitely feel the team spirit.
Top 20 week 2 by Jim and Jaja.
This routine was just so sweet to watch. Jaja's facial expressions were everything
and Jim looked great doing hip hop :)
10th year anniversary performance by the all stars choreographed by Travis Wall.
Everything was so magical. The stage made it extra perfect and it took my breath away.
This dance just brought back lots of past SYTYCD memories for me.
I'm excited to watch the rest of the season :)
Also, I'm so pumped for ABDC 8!!!!!!
A great year for dance indeed.
Alright, that's it, I'm out.