I'm in a dilemma right now.
For the last 2 years, I had such a clear idea of where I wanna be in future.
I don't know why, but for some reason this idea seems to be diminishing.
I suppose it's because of the unexpected bump in the road
(My rubbish A'level grades)
that caused me to lose hope.
It's not terribly bad, but it's not good enough for me to get into the course that I like..
Unless, I go through a lengthy tedious troublesome process.
And questions like "Is this really worth all the trouble?" or "should I give up"
starts popping in my head.
I can't believe this.
I thought I believed in this dream so strongly.
Anyway, as of right now, i'm stuck between choosing whether or not
I wanna stay behind in my home country to pursue courses that I may or may not enjoy
or leave home to pursue something I've been dreaming about.
I need some signs..
God, if you're reading this, please give me some hints.
The fine line between giving up and letting go of what may or may not be right for you.
It's depressing, I almost feel like I need to re-examine my life.